Short-Cut = Disaster

Thought that I have nothing to write, but suddenly I've encounter a scaring experience.

So as usual Friday night, I will take the gospel van to fetch some members for night service. After reaching the 1st house, I proceed to the 2nd member house. To reach the 2nd member house we usualy will take a short cut. A short but narrow road.

But yesterday when I reach there, on the left hand side of the road there is a small trench. Not sure the drench is for drainage or laying piping system. What I know is that it quite deep.

Thinking I could go through the road, half way I see a backhoe is working at the other end. Well I just reverse the van. Ooops wrong move. The van got stuck on the loose earth. I try to move forward...nope it didn't move....try to reverse ....nope it also didn't move.

Luckily there is still some worker nearby. So they tell me to move forward while they will push the van from behind and they say I can't reverse anymore or else it will fall down the trench. Fortunate the van got stuck or else it will sure inside the trench.

It's really bad, even with the help of 'man-power' the van still didn't budge. No choice....here come the backhoe! A chain is use to help the backhoe to pull the van move forward. Yesssss, it work! So it time to reverse back to the main road.

Haiz~~~still stuck. Luckily a god send hilux is there (i really don't know where it come from). So using the chain again and the hilux (4x4) to pull the van back to the main road.

At last I'm free.....oppps....the van is free. After thanking those guys I proceed to fetch the members.


Backhoe


Hilux


Alpha

Being Adopted Son/Daughter......(2)

When people ask me how many siblings do I have. I'll think for a moment and will reply...."I have another 2 sibling" (exclude P)......but depend on situation ....sometimes I'll say I have 3 other sibling (include P).

I'm very scare when people ask me question on "how many sibling do I have". I scare that when I say I have 2 other sibling, on the other side my sister telling people we have 3 sibling, then we'll die....having to explain to them.

At one time my sister and I study in the same collegue but different class. So as usually on the beginning of semester some lecturer will get know the student by having casual chat. Well got one particular lecture did ask me THE question.....so I say 2 sibling. This lecture also teach at my sister class. I just hope the lecture won't ask my sister the same question. When I have chance I go and meet with my sister and inform her about the matter. I think from that day onwards our answer have been standardise no matter who ask or in what situation.

I HAVE MORE 2 SIBLING.

This is not to say we do not accept P, but it is more easier for us ..... by not having to explain where is P, what is P doing now or never heard of P being our sister and other sort of questions.

It is very difficult for us to reply when people start asking about P. Well we just don't mention about P to other people then this will solve our problem. So till now (except close friends) many still don't know I have another elder sister.

Lately I've found out another contradiction on our answer. All my sibling answer to THE Question is that "I have 2 more sibling". But my parent say they have 4 children. So far the problem haven't arise yet. Well hope other people won't found out.

~ Alpha

Being Adopted Son/Daughter

How do you feel when you first know you are adopted child? Do you have many question than answer? You like to know who is your biological parents? You are curious whether you have any biological siblings?

I don't know.........I'm not adopted child! But my eldest sister is. Lets name her P

As a kid P is sort like a stranger in my life. I seldom have chance to see her as we didn't live together. She live with my grandmother while I......I live with my parents and other siblings in another house around 30 min journey.

P very seldom come to my house and when my father bring us to visit grandmother every weekend, I also couldn't meet her. She is like someone related to me (as she is my sister) yet she is far from me.

As a kid I will be very happy if I could see her and have her around my family for a couple of minutes or hours before she vanish again and don't know when will we meet again.

Yeah, I also remember I didn't talk much or play with her as our wide age gap. I'm only a small kid when she already a youth.

A youth is the most rebellious. P is no exception and even hard to control when she already know she is adopted child. Strange things do happen, P accept my father as her father but not my mother. So it is another history/story why P do not accept my mother.

I still remember my mother say P is very difficult to teach/discipline as she is adopted. She will not listen to what my mother say.

There is a period of time, P really don't like my mother. Yes it is during the time when P is already working. When P call back home, she sometimes will ask "is your mom home?". My 2nd sister did ask why it is "my mom" and not "our mom". The reply is "she is really your mom and not my mom". Well what she say is logic....to me when I'm just a teenager that time!

Time really can change a person. When P is married and have kids....P relation with my mother improve tremendously. Out from P own mouth she say "during young time, I don't have a mature thinking, now is different after having own family and kids". Well I think P finally realize that what my mom do or say means well to her. Yeah...when P call back home no longer she say "your mom"...it become "mom".

So P marry to a businessman and live in another state. Her life is much more better than us (we are from poor family). She didn't leave us, she help us. My mother think P help us because she was move by God. As I say we are from poor family....my father don't own a house (we live in a rented house) or a car.

P purposely buy a new house for us to stay. P know we don't have money to buy new furniture.....she bear most of the cost.....including house renovation cost. Living in a new township is not convenient to move around....P give her car to my father. Well now I'm living in a very comfortable house and got car to ride. :)

~ Alpha

Lately I'm Very Forgetful

Yeah, now I easy can forget something. Just few days ago, as usual I go to church to take the gospel van to fetch church member for service. When I arrive at the front door I realize I've forgotten the pin number. I can't access into the church! For months I've been able to key in the number but why now I can't remember the pin number?

Since the increment I've found out I'm really slowly walking towards a place called "Never ending work load". I need to arrange a lot of things and many more things to think of and also a lot of planning in my mind. My worries (job related matters) have increased. No wonder I've more grey hair now!

I remember those day, when I'm still a junior in the company I don't have worries. I just do my things and any problem will be hand back to senior to solve. When I chat with friends, I heard them saying they have a lot of pressure. Well I'm gladly say I don't have. At that time my job is easy, repetitive and dull.

After years of enjoying a happy and easy life, it is time for me to bear more responsible. My Accounts Executive pass me a company to take care. Is a newly establish company which the core business is a plantation sector.

I will be responsible for the daily affair of the company which including accounts/human resources/ordering material and other related function. I'm only an accounts clerk and I have to do all these things. Nevermind I learn.

Nothing much to do in the first few months, now it has been 3rd year since I take over. The work load slowly increase. The company have 13,000 acres of land. Fully develop only 3,000 acres and now the opening area is bigger and bigger. The work will be more and more. Up until now I don't have assistant to help me as I still can manage myself. I don't know what will happen once they fully develop the whole 13,000 acres of land.

My worries does not stop here. Recently my company have interest in buying 2nd land which is about 10,000 acres and a 3rd land if successful will also be about 10,000 acres. OMG!

Will all these new land or newly establish company for the new land under me? I just don't know.

Alpha

Moody Week

At last with courage I sms the 'girl' (which my parent like) telling her I wish to 'know her better'...blah..blah..'I will understand & is ok if she just want to be friend'....blah...bla.....

5min......10min........30 min......next morning!.....still no news from her. My mind are full of question....is she rejecting me?........or need few days time to think?.....or keep silent don't know how to react?

Okay, I sms her hoping she still got a good nite sleep after reading my sms. After waiting for ages....she reply my sms...'i got good nite sleep'. Well at least this is a good sign as she not trying to avoid me!

I sms her few more messages.....well it goes unreply.......nevermind I wait to call her at nite......my call unanswer.

Nevermind I call her next morning......still unanswer....I start to panic.....is she avoiding my call/sms?

I sms her telling her how worry I am (for her safety) when calls is unanswer. Again after waiting for ages....she reply....'she is okay.....boss around.......very busy'. I sms her again telling her I'll call her at nite........she reply....'stock count next month, now need to do preparation, will be back late'

Then I ask 'how late....bla..bla...I wont' call you if it is really late'. My sms again goes unreply.

How should I judge her reaction? Is she rejecting me? Is she permit me to know her better? or She didn't have time to think...she is just too busy?

From my previous sms with her......I've come to realize that almost every sms that she reply have the word "BUSY". Is she that busy...until she didn't answer my call and reply my sms?

I just don't know. This have really affect my work.....really no mood to work. I just can't figure out what she want. I prefer her to say 'I don't like you' or 'ok let us know each other better' rather than waiting.....waiting...and waiting.

What I'm waiting now? I don't know. Today is the 2nd day I didn't sms or call her. She in turn didn't call me or sms me.

Other people telling me that she is busy....and she have a tired sound when speak on the phone. Is she that busy?

Although my office is very very near to her work place, it seem far.....far away. Even to have lunch with her is a very tough task.....'ok I'll have lunch with you.....a very quick lunch'.....

"A Very Quick Lunch"

But it also didn't realise yet.

I just don't know what to do now. Okay I've make up my mind....I just give her few more days, if she still have no respond.....I just ask her directly what she want? or I can just forget about her.

Maybe.....maybe she is not my EVE!

Alpha

Should You Quit Your Job?

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 0%

Sure, no job is perfect - but yours is pretty close. You're respected by your co-workers and boss. Plus, you usually get credit for your successes. Don't quit, unless you know you've got something better lined up.

Should You Quit Your Job?

Can you believe my result? It is unbelievable....."Your Job Dissatisfaction Level Is 0%"

At times I feel I want to change my job, to change my working environment, to earn a better pay and to know more people. Well guess what! this result tell me I shouldn't leave my current job.

Now with pay just increased....I just can't run to work at another company....for the time being, right!

What say you?

Alpha

"V" For Victory

My HR Head call me, Boss have nod his head to our increment.

But I still do not know how much is my increment, as she is on her way back home and my Financial Controller called her to inform the good news.

Finally after waited for 1 year and 29 days our salary will be increased.

Alpha

Well He Really Can Help!

Today my Financial Controller (FC) come back from outstation and I'm preparing Company B's salary. So it is good timing for me to inform him about the pay raise for Company B's staffs.

I take the cheques and the voucher for him to check and sign....while he signing the voucher I say to him

"Just to let you know, Boss have agreed to increase the pay for Company B's staff"

"Okay, I'll talk to boss."

So I went out from his room.

FC intercom my HR Head requesting a fresh name list. Wow at least it is the beginning of good sign.

Just a minute.....why my HR Head stay inside my FC room for so long?.....From rumor I heard my FC have a incident on the recent business trip which make him "lose face". I haven't know the full detail yet.

Besides that he already know the increment in Company B. My Manager sms him. He don't like it.....the way my manager act (bypass the FC).

Luckily we didn't direct request from Boss, we know he didn't like it.....to bypass him.

I personally think if my Manager didn't directly request from boss, my FC will take his own sweet time to request increment for our behalf. So now since the Company B have increment, he must be fair and have to request increment for Company A's staff.

Alpha

Can You Help Me?

On 27th Feb 2006, 11.48pm my friend sms me telling that the petrol price will increase and quickly fill up my fuel tank. Its close to midnight and this guy ask me to go out and fill me tank! Forget about it.

28th Feb 2006, newspaper frontpage......Petrol price increase RM0.30/lit. Nowadays the Government like to make decision in the middle of the night. They make the annoucement at 10.30pm (27/02/2006) and will be effective at midnight.

With petrol price increase, everything will increase soon. Only one thing didn't increase......my SALARY!

28th Feb 2006, (noon).....I send my Financial Controller (FC)to board the plane. During the journey I hints to him that it is the time for him to request from the Boss for increment! It a very...very reasonable request from the Boss since we didn't get increment for year 2005 and this year! Every year the company is making profit, why can't they increase our pay!

1st Mar 2006, one of my manager ask me whether there is any news on increment for the staffs. Nope...no news. So I tell him to remember me if he is going to request from the boss.

"Sorry you are not my direct staff, I can't help you"

This is the answer I get!

I know my situation is a bit complicated because Company A hire me and Company A have a related company (Company B) which I'm now in charge of the accounts/HR/etc. The manager is from Company B and he is right that I'm not directly under him.....but now I work under him, isn't he have the rights to request pay raise for me?

So forget about the manager, now I will focus on my FC, hope once he is back from outstation he will request pay raise for us.

12.00 Noon, Boss come into the office

Boss : Alpha pls come to my office

(I enter Boss office)

Boss : You prepare the salary for the Company B's staff with the proposed increment from the Manager, increment effective Feb'06 but back pay the Manager since Jan'06.

WoW, my manager have such a great influence on my boss. This have prove 2 things.....my FC is useless after proposed few times to my boss for increment still have no news. Secondly, maybe my FC didn't proposed to my boss at all, which he say he did when we ask him.

One with great influence but not my direct superior. One is my direct superior but useless. Who will help me then?

Alpha

Never too late for new year resolution

Few days ago, Omega mention something about his new year resolution.

OMG, I didn't make any resolution this year!

I didn't because of previous experience which most of what I resolve to do didn't realize. So why need it.

Omega got a point by saying at least it will lead our way of life. Yeah, I think I can make a resolution now....I need to read thru the whole bible.

Hopefully it can be realize.

~ Alpha

Reprimand

One of my colleague being reprimand by my Accounts Executive. I don't want to say any bad things on this colleague of mine. But indeed her work attitude is of no good and rude in speech.

In directly it also connected to me. I recommend her to my company. She is the wife of my friend. Luckily I have no say in hiring of her. It is my Accounts Executive who take her in.

Bad decision cause a bad working environment.

~ Alpha

A Dim Hope

Yesterday after my breaking news on increment, my HR Head are in full alert to see any annoucement from my Financial Controller (FC).

At last, from the mouth of my FC....."to get increment is still a long way to run"

It have scatter my hope.

~ Alpha

Ray of hope

This afternoon, when I'm in my Financial Controller (FC) room, he suddenly tell me that there are some news on increment. At first I thought it could be for the company staff which I'm handling now.

Me : Is it for the company X staff?

FC : No is for the whole company. But it won't be so soon, later.

(FC seeing me wearing a shirt he give me)

FC : My house still got some shirt, when I got time I'll pack it for you.

Me : Thank you.

Before HR Head leave the office, I ask her did she know about the news of we getting pay raise. Nope! she don't know anything about it?

Strange, how come my FC told me first?

~ Alpha

Ponder....& ponder again

Today I join some church member to do some visiting.

After that I have a very...very serious discusion....the marriage with a friend. He give me good advice and ask me to ponder about the matter.

But the most important things is to pray to the Almighty One for help.

I agree with him. Now I'll pray and see what will happen!

~ Alpha

New Dishes

Yesterday, my colleague are having lunch again with my boss. Nope I didn't go, because I'm busy with my workload.

So I heard from them, this time they are not eating the same old dishes but a new type.

Well it certainly not my luck to taste new dishes.

~ Alpha

I'm a driver

Every Friday after work I'll rush back home. I take bath and have my dinner before I go to church.

It 6.30pm, the church service haven't start yet until 8pm. I know I'm a bit too early to arrive there. But I have a mission to complete....to drive the gospel van and fetch up church members who do not have transport to attend service.

Usually on every Friday I'll fetch the members and after the service end another guy will send them home. Just name this guy A.

Since on every Saturday Guy A will fetch up the members, he will just drive the van back to his home. Sometimes if Guy A not free to send them back after Sabbath service, it my turn become the driver.

Today it a bit special, Guy A is not around....he and other choir group member is out of town....they attend a fellowship service. At the same time, today is Thaipusam and the festival is a gazetted holiday in my state.

It a hectic day, today is also my turn to speak on the pulpit and I haven't finish my sermon. After breakfast, I quickly finish up my sermon. Well I finish at 12:15 pm, it's time to take my lunch.

12:35pm I've reach the church to take the van. Around 2:20pm I'm back at church for 2:30pm service. I'm lucky to be on time and I proceed to lead the service.

4:00pm service ended and after a short chit chat, it time to send the members home. I reach home 5:30pm.

Tomorrow morning I have to wake up early in order to pick-up the children for Religion Education Class. It is very unusual for me to pick up children on Sunday. But what to do, other youth are already out of town.

~ Alpha

Latest office plan

Latest office plan (8 Feb 2006)

Legend

a) Green color = computer
b) Yellow color = writing desk
c) Blue line = partition
d) Circle "O" = chair
e) Red color circle "O" = new ruler

After rearrange our sitting, my territory diminish into half of the original size. I'm lucky still to have 2 1/2 table to use (writing desk with pink dot).

A partition between "A" and "C" have been taken out to create more space for "E".

The rest remain the same.

After 1 year "E" could be transfer to other branch. Then I'll reclaim back to my previous glory. Muahaha!

~ Alpha

More bad news

I've received another sms, one of my friend's father have to amputate his right leg tomorrow morning. As I know her father have been sick for the pass few month and have received treatment in hospital.

I hope I'll not receive anymore bad news.

~ Alpha

My Office Plan as at today

My office plan (7 Feb 2006)

Legend

a) Green color = computer table
b) Yellow color = writing desk
c) Grey color = pathway
d) Blue line = partition
d) Circle "O" = chair
e) Red color circle "O" = new ruler

When I'm happily govern my territory, suddenly come a foreign power to claim part of my territory. A "supreme being" (my boss) command me to create a vacant land to this foreign power to rule.

I clear a table (the one which is beside my computer) for the new ruler.

~ 'E' is one of my company's engineer. He will be my neighbor for about 1 year or at least until our project finished.

The new ruler drop by to see his new land. Not satisfy with the new territory...he say it is too small. He got a lot of royalty/minister/guests (supplier/subcontractor/etc) and goodies (files) to store when he settle in.

Before he come, we have arrange a new computer for him. After his inspection he request a larger writing desk and cabinet.

Ok, we order a new desk and cabinet for him.....but we do not have any idea where to place it. Although my drawing seem to have a lot of space between 'A' table and 'C' partition.....it actually only a narrow pathway....I'm a lousy drawer! The desk will come tomorrow and we have request the furniture owner (interior designer) to help us to rearrange our sitting.

So just wait and see how many land will be apportion back to me.

~ Alpha

Feel Blessed .......(3)

Just received a sms, my friend who have kidney problem have passed away today at 6.15pm.

~ Alpha