When people ask me how many siblings do I have. I'll think for a moment and will reply...."I have another 2 sibling" (exclude P)......but depend on situation ....sometimes I'll say I have 3 other sibling (include P).
I'm very scare when people ask me question on "how many sibling do I have". I scare that when I say I have 2 other sibling, on the other side my sister telling people we have 3 sibling, then we'll die....having to explain to them.
At one time my sister and I study in the same collegue but different class. So as usually on the beginning of semester some lecturer will get know the student by having casual chat. Well got one particular lecture did ask me THE question.....so I say 2 sibling. This lecture also teach at my sister class. I just hope the lecture won't ask my sister the same question. When I have chance I go and meet with my sister and inform her about the matter. I think from that day onwards our answer have been standardise no matter who ask or in what situation.
I HAVE MORE 2 SIBLING.
This is not to say we do not accept P, but it is more easier for us ..... by not having to explain where is P, what is P doing now or never heard of P being our sister and other sort of questions.
It is very difficult for us to reply when people start asking about P. Well we just don't mention about P to other people then this will solve our problem. So till now (except close friends) many still don't know I have another elder sister.
Lately I've found out another contradiction on our answer. All my sibling answer to THE Question is that "I have 2 more sibling". But my parent say they have 4 children. So far the problem haven't arise yet. Well hope other people won't found out.
~ Alpha
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Being Adopted Son/Daughter
How do you feel when you first know you are adopted child? Do you have many question than answer? You like to know who is your biological parents? You are curious whether you have any biological siblings?
I don't know.........I'm not adopted child! But my eldest sister is. Lets name her P
As a kid P is sort like a stranger in my life. I seldom have chance to see her as we didn't live together. She live with my grandmother while I......I live with my parents and other siblings in another house around 30 min journey.
P very seldom come to my house and when my father bring us to visit grandmother every weekend, I also couldn't meet her. She is like someone related to me (as she is my sister) yet she is far from me.
As a kid I will be very happy if I could see her and have her around my family for a couple of minutes or hours before she vanish again and don't know when will we meet again.
Yeah, I also remember I didn't talk much or play with her as our wide age gap. I'm only a small kid when she already a youth.
A youth is the most rebellious. P is no exception and even hard to control when she already know she is adopted child. Strange things do happen, P accept my father as her father but not my mother. So it is another history/story why P do not accept my mother.
I still remember my mother say P is very difficult to teach/discipline as she is adopted. She will not listen to what my mother say.
There is a period of time, P really don't like my mother. Yes it is during the time when P is already working. When P call back home, she sometimes will ask "is your mom home?". My 2nd sister did ask why it is "my mom" and not "our mom". The reply is "she is really your mom and not my mom". Well what she say is logic....to me when I'm just a teenager that time!
Time really can change a person. When P is married and have kids....P relation with my mother improve tremendously. Out from P own mouth she say "during young time, I don't have a mature thinking, now is different after having own family and kids". Well I think P finally realize that what my mom do or say means well to her. Yeah...when P call back home no longer she say "your mom"...it become "mom".
So P marry to a businessman and live in another state. Her life is much more better than us (we are from poor family). She didn't leave us, she help us. My mother think P help us because she was move by God. As I say we are from poor family....my father don't own a house (we live in a rented house) or a car.
P purposely buy a new house for us to stay. P know we don't have money to buy new furniture.....she bear most of the cost.....including house renovation cost. Living in a new township is not convenient to move around....P give her car to my father. Well now I'm living in a very comfortable house and got car to ride. :)
~ Alpha
I don't know.........I'm not adopted child! But my eldest sister is. Lets name her P
As a kid P is sort like a stranger in my life. I seldom have chance to see her as we didn't live together. She live with my grandmother while I......I live with my parents and other siblings in another house around 30 min journey.
P very seldom come to my house and when my father bring us to visit grandmother every weekend, I also couldn't meet her. She is like someone related to me (as she is my sister) yet she is far from me.
As a kid I will be very happy if I could see her and have her around my family for a couple of minutes or hours before she vanish again and don't know when will we meet again.
Yeah, I also remember I didn't talk much or play with her as our wide age gap. I'm only a small kid when she already a youth.
A youth is the most rebellious. P is no exception and even hard to control when she already know she is adopted child. Strange things do happen, P accept my father as her father but not my mother. So it is another history/story why P do not accept my mother.
I still remember my mother say P is very difficult to teach/discipline as she is adopted. She will not listen to what my mother say.
There is a period of time, P really don't like my mother. Yes it is during the time when P is already working. When P call back home, she sometimes will ask "is your mom home?". My 2nd sister did ask why it is "my mom" and not "our mom". The reply is "she is really your mom and not my mom". Well what she say is logic....to me when I'm just a teenager that time!
Time really can change a person. When P is married and have kids....P relation with my mother improve tremendously. Out from P own mouth she say "during young time, I don't have a mature thinking, now is different after having own family and kids". Well I think P finally realize that what my mom do or say means well to her. Yeah...when P call back home no longer she say "your mom"...it become "mom".
So P marry to a businessman and live in another state. Her life is much more better than us (we are from poor family). She didn't leave us, she help us. My mother think P help us because she was move by God. As I say we are from poor family....my father don't own a house (we live in a rented house) or a car.
P purposely buy a new house for us to stay. P know we don't have money to buy new furniture.....she bear most of the cost.....including house renovation cost. Living in a new township is not convenient to move around....P give her car to my father. Well now I'm living in a very comfortable house and got car to ride. :)
~ Alpha
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Lately I'm Very Forgetful
Yeah, now I easy can forget something. Just few days ago, as usual I go to church to take the gospel van to fetch church member for service. When I arrive at the front door I realize I've forgotten the pin number. I can't access into the church! For months I've been able to key in the number but why now I can't remember the pin number?
Since the increment I've found out I'm really slowly walking towards a place called "Never ending work load". I need to arrange a lot of things and many more things to think of and also a lot of planning in my mind. My worries (job related matters) have increased. No wonder I've more grey hair now!
I remember those day, when I'm still a junior in the company I don't have worries. I just do my things and any problem will be hand back to senior to solve. When I chat with friends, I heard them saying they have a lot of pressure. Well I'm gladly say I don't have. At that time my job is easy, repetitive and dull.
After years of enjoying a happy and easy life, it is time for me to bear more responsible. My Accounts Executive pass me a company to take care. Is a newly establish company which the core business is a plantation sector.
I will be responsible for the daily affair of the company which including accounts/human resources/ordering material and other related function. I'm only an accounts clerk and I have to do all these things. Nevermind I learn.
Nothing much to do in the first few months, now it has been 3rd year since I take over. The work load slowly increase. The company have 13,000 acres of land. Fully develop only 3,000 acres and now the opening area is bigger and bigger. The work will be more and more. Up until now I don't have assistant to help me as I still can manage myself. I don't know what will happen once they fully develop the whole 13,000 acres of land.
My worries does not stop here. Recently my company have interest in buying 2nd land which is about 10,000 acres and a 3rd land if successful will also be about 10,000 acres. OMG!
Will all these new land or newly establish company for the new land under me? I just don't know.
Alpha
Since the increment I've found out I'm really slowly walking towards a place called "Never ending work load". I need to arrange a lot of things and many more things to think of and also a lot of planning in my mind. My worries (job related matters) have increased. No wonder I've more grey hair now!
I remember those day, when I'm still a junior in the company I don't have worries. I just do my things and any problem will be hand back to senior to solve. When I chat with friends, I heard them saying they have a lot of pressure. Well I'm gladly say I don't have. At that time my job is easy, repetitive and dull.
After years of enjoying a happy and easy life, it is time for me to bear more responsible. My Accounts Executive pass me a company to take care. Is a newly establish company which the core business is a plantation sector.
I will be responsible for the daily affair of the company which including accounts/human resources/ordering material and other related function. I'm only an accounts clerk and I have to do all these things. Nevermind I learn.
Nothing much to do in the first few months, now it has been 3rd year since I take over. The work load slowly increase. The company have 13,000 acres of land. Fully develop only 3,000 acres and now the opening area is bigger and bigger. The work will be more and more. Up until now I don't have assistant to help me as I still can manage myself. I don't know what will happen once they fully develop the whole 13,000 acres of land.
My worries does not stop here. Recently my company have interest in buying 2nd land which is about 10,000 acres and a 3rd land if successful will also be about 10,000 acres. OMG!
Will all these new land or newly establish company for the new land under me? I just don't know.
Alpha
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Moody Week
At last with courage I sms the 'girl' (which my parent like) telling her I wish to 'know her better'...blah..blah..'I will understand & is ok if she just want to be friend'....blah...bla.....
5min......10min........30 min......next morning!.....still no news from her. My mind are full of question....is she rejecting me?........or need few days time to think?.....or keep silent don't know how to react?
Okay, I sms her hoping she still got a good nite sleep after reading my sms. After waiting for ages....she reply my sms...'i got good nite sleep'. Well at least this is a good sign as she not trying to avoid me!
I sms her few more messages.....well it goes unreply.......nevermind I wait to call her at nite......my call unanswer.
Nevermind I call her next morning......still unanswer....I start to panic.....is she avoiding my call/sms?
I sms her telling her how worry I am (for her safety) when calls is unanswer. Again after waiting for ages....she reply....'she is okay.....boss around.......very busy'. I sms her again telling her I'll call her at nite........she reply....'stock count next month, now need to do preparation, will be back late'
Then I ask 'how late....bla..bla...I wont' call you if it is really late'. My sms again goes unreply.
How should I judge her reaction? Is she rejecting me? Is she permit me to know her better? or She didn't have time to think...she is just too busy?
From my previous sms with her......I've come to realize that almost every sms that she reply have the word "BUSY". Is she that busy...until she didn't answer my call and reply my sms?
I just don't know. This have really affect my work.....really no mood to work. I just can't figure out what she want. I prefer her to say 'I don't like you' or 'ok let us know each other better' rather than waiting.....waiting...and waiting.
What I'm waiting now? I don't know. Today is the 2nd day I didn't sms or call her. She in turn didn't call me or sms me.
Other people telling me that she is busy....and she have a tired sound when speak on the phone. Is she that busy?
Although my office is very very near to her work place, it seem far.....far away. Even to have lunch with her is a very tough task.....'ok I'll have lunch with you.....a very quick lunch'.....
"A Very Quick Lunch"
But it also didn't realise yet.
I just don't know what to do now. Okay I've make up my mind....I just give her few more days, if she still have no respond.....I just ask her directly what she want? or I can just forget about her.
Maybe.....maybe she is not my EVE!
Alpha
5min......10min........30 min......next morning!.....still no news from her. My mind are full of question....is she rejecting me?........or need few days time to think?.....or keep silent don't know how to react?
Okay, I sms her hoping she still got a good nite sleep after reading my sms. After waiting for ages....she reply my sms...'i got good nite sleep'. Well at least this is a good sign as she not trying to avoid me!
I sms her few more messages.....well it goes unreply.......nevermind I wait to call her at nite......my call unanswer.
Nevermind I call her next morning......still unanswer....I start to panic.....is she avoiding my call/sms?
I sms her telling her how worry I am (for her safety) when calls is unanswer. Again after waiting for ages....she reply....'she is okay.....boss around.......very busy'. I sms her again telling her I'll call her at nite........she reply....'stock count next month, now need to do preparation, will be back late'
Then I ask 'how late....bla..bla...I wont' call you if it is really late'. My sms again goes unreply.
How should I judge her reaction? Is she rejecting me? Is she permit me to know her better? or She didn't have time to think...she is just too busy?
From my previous sms with her......I've come to realize that almost every sms that she reply have the word "BUSY". Is she that busy...until she didn't answer my call and reply my sms?
I just don't know. This have really affect my work.....really no mood to work. I just can't figure out what she want. I prefer her to say 'I don't like you' or 'ok let us know each other better' rather than waiting.....waiting...and waiting.
What I'm waiting now? I don't know. Today is the 2nd day I didn't sms or call her. She in turn didn't call me or sms me.
Other people telling me that she is busy....and she have a tired sound when speak on the phone. Is she that busy?
Although my office is very very near to her work place, it seem far.....far away. Even to have lunch with her is a very tough task.....'ok I'll have lunch with you.....a very quick lunch'.....
"A Very Quick Lunch"
But it also didn't realise yet.
I just don't know what to do now. Okay I've make up my mind....I just give her few more days, if she still have no respond.....I just ask her directly what she want? or I can just forget about her.
Maybe.....maybe she is not my EVE!
Alpha
Friday, March 03, 2006
Sleeping Pay?!!
Photos ©2000 EyeWire, Inc.Venue : At a restaurant
Time : 1:00pm
Occasion : A supplier treat my boss and staffs for lunch
Extract of conversation......
Supplier : Oh you two are pregnant (my colleague), is this your first baby.
Colleague 1 & 2 : Yes
Supplier : First time deliver must be very painful
Boss : What painful, I'm the one who are painful. I have to pay them 2 months salary during their maternity period! Make sure you all come back to work on time, you know!
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My boss will be unease when his staff is pregnant as when the time come, he have to continue to pay them salary for at least 60 days (2 months) during their maternity period.
So unfortunate that this year 2 of my colleague are pregnant and the delivery date is just 2 weeks apart. Well not only he have to pay them "sleeping pay" but also have to face the shortages of staffs.
The other things are my boss like to give comments that will make the pregnant staff unease. I remember hearing from my colleague that one day the boss say "Wow your belly is so big lah"....."Belly so big, not yet deliver meh?"
Alpha
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Should You Quit Your Job?
Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 0% |
 Sure, no job is perfect - but yours is pretty close. You're respected by your co-workers and boss. Plus, you usually get credit for your successes. Don't quit, unless you know you've got something better lined up. |
Can you believe my result? It is unbelievable....."Your Job Dissatisfaction Level Is 0%"
At times I feel I want to change my job, to change my working environment, to earn a better pay and to know more people. Well guess what! this result tell me I shouldn't leave my current job.
Now with pay just increased....I just can't run to work at another company....for the time being, right!
What say you?
Alpha
"V" For Victory
My HR Head call me, Boss have nod his head to our increment.
But I still do not know how much is my increment, as she is on her way back home and my Financial Controller called her to inform the good news.
Finally after waited for 1 year and 29 days our salary will be increased.
Alpha
But I still do not know how much is my increment, as she is on her way back home and my Financial Controller called her to inform the good news.
Finally after waited for 1 year and 29 days our salary will be increased.
Alpha
Well He Really Can Help!
Today my Financial Controller (FC) come back from outstation and I'm preparing Company B's salary. So it is good timing for me to inform him about the pay raise for Company B's staffs.
I take the cheques and the voucher for him to check and sign....while he signing the voucher I say to him
"Just to let you know, Boss have agreed to increase the pay for Company B's staff"
"Okay, I'll talk to boss."
So I went out from his room.
FC intercom my HR Head requesting a fresh name list. Wow at least it is the beginning of good sign.
Just a minute.....why my HR Head stay inside my FC room for so long?.....From rumor I heard my FC have a incident on the recent business trip which make him "lose face". I haven't know the full detail yet.
Besides that he already know the increment in Company B. My Manager sms him. He don't like it.....the way my manager act (bypass the FC).
Luckily we didn't direct request from Boss, we know he didn't like it.....to bypass him.
I personally think if my Manager didn't directly request from boss, my FC will take his own sweet time to request increment for our behalf. So now since the Company B have increment, he must be fair and have to request increment for Company A's staff.
I take the cheques and the voucher for him to check and sign....while he signing the voucher I say to him
"Just to let you know, Boss have agreed to increase the pay for Company B's staff"
"Okay, I'll talk to boss."
So I went out from his room.
FC intercom my HR Head requesting a fresh name list. Wow at least it is the beginning of good sign.
Just a minute.....why my HR Head stay inside my FC room for so long?.....From rumor I heard my FC have a incident on the recent business trip which make him "lose face". I haven't know the full detail yet.
Besides that he already know the increment in Company B. My Manager sms him. He don't like it.....the way my manager act (bypass the FC).
Luckily we didn't direct request from Boss, we know he didn't like it.....to bypass him.
I personally think if my Manager didn't directly request from boss, my FC will take his own sweet time to request increment for our behalf. So now since the Company B have increment, he must be fair and have to request increment for Company A's staff.
Alpha
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Thank You
At last, I received the first ever comment by "anonymous_sweetkiss".
Thank you for being my first reader to comment on my blog.
I appreciate your comment. I'm flattered.
You eventually have raise my strenght & will to continue my blog.
Alpha
Thank you for being my first reader to comment on my blog.
I appreciate your comment. I'm flattered.
You eventually have raise my strenght & will to continue my blog.
Alpha
Blog Readers Are Biased
Karl Thimblethorpe
If this is me, yes me....will you come back to read my blog everyday?
If I am as sexy as this Karl Thimblethorpe or as handsome as him, will I attract more people to read my blog?
Carry on to read the rest of the story by MARVELGAL.
Alpha
Can You Help Me?
On 27th Feb 2006, 11.48pm my friend sms me telling that the petrol price will increase and quickly fill up my fuel tank. Its close to midnight and this guy ask me to go out and fill me tank! Forget about it.
28th Feb 2006, newspaper frontpage......Petrol price increase RM0.30/lit. Nowadays the Government like to make decision in the middle of the night. They make the annoucement at 10.30pm (27/02/2006) and will be effective at midnight.
With petrol price increase, everything will increase soon. Only one thing didn't increase......my SALARY!
28th Feb 2006, (noon).....I send my Financial Controller (FC)to board the plane. During the journey I hints to him that it is the time for him to request from the Boss for increment! It a very...very reasonable request from the Boss since we didn't get increment for year 2005 and this year! Every year the company is making profit, why can't they increase our pay!
1st Mar 2006, one of my manager ask me whether there is any news on increment for the staffs. Nope...no news. So I tell him to remember me if he is going to request from the boss.
"Sorry you are not my direct staff, I can't help you"
This is the answer I get!
I know my situation is a bit complicated because Company A hire me and Company A have a related company (Company B) which I'm now in charge of the accounts/HR/etc. The manager is from Company B and he is right that I'm not directly under him.....but now I work under him, isn't he have the rights to request pay raise for me?
So forget about the manager, now I will focus on my FC, hope once he is back from outstation he will request pay raise for us.
12.00 Noon, Boss come into the office
Boss : Alpha pls come to my office
(I enter Boss office)
Boss : You prepare the salary for the Company B's staff with the proposed increment from the Manager, increment effective Feb'06 but back pay the Manager since Jan'06.
WoW, my manager have such a great influence on my boss. This have prove 2 things.....my FC is useless after proposed few times to my boss for increment still have no news. Secondly, maybe my FC didn't proposed to my boss at all, which he say he did when we ask him.
One with great influence but not my direct superior. One is my direct superior but useless. Who will help me then?
Alpha
28th Feb 2006, newspaper frontpage......Petrol price increase RM0.30/lit. Nowadays the Government like to make decision in the middle of the night. They make the annoucement at 10.30pm (27/02/2006) and will be effective at midnight.
With petrol price increase, everything will increase soon. Only one thing didn't increase......my SALARY!
28th Feb 2006, (noon).....I send my Financial Controller (FC)to board the plane. During the journey I hints to him that it is the time for him to request from the Boss for increment! It a very...very reasonable request from the Boss since we didn't get increment for year 2005 and this year! Every year the company is making profit, why can't they increase our pay!
1st Mar 2006, one of my manager ask me whether there is any news on increment for the staffs. Nope...no news. So I tell him to remember me if he is going to request from the boss.
"Sorry you are not my direct staff, I can't help you"
This is the answer I get!
I know my situation is a bit complicated because Company A hire me and Company A have a related company (Company B) which I'm now in charge of the accounts/HR/etc. The manager is from Company B and he is right that I'm not directly under him.....but now I work under him, isn't he have the rights to request pay raise for me?
So forget about the manager, now I will focus on my FC, hope once he is back from outstation he will request pay raise for us.
12.00 Noon, Boss come into the office
Boss : Alpha pls come to my office
(I enter Boss office)
Boss : You prepare the salary for the Company B's staff with the proposed increment from the Manager, increment effective Feb'06 but back pay the Manager since Jan'06.
WoW, my manager have such a great influence on my boss. This have prove 2 things.....my FC is useless after proposed few times to my boss for increment still have no news. Secondly, maybe my FC didn't proposed to my boss at all, which he say he did when we ask him.
One with great influence but not my direct superior. One is my direct superior but useless. Who will help me then?
Alpha
New Year Resolution.....(2)
Aaah....I'm very lazy, until now also haven't start reading the bible. Don't know whether this resolution will postpone to be my Next New Year Resolution!
I know, I need to start to read the bible or else won't be able to finish in December, but I get a lot of distraction from Internet, TV & other books & I sleep a lot.
Now I'm reading "Manners & Customs of the Bible" by James M. Freeman. Haven't finish reading it and it quite okey. What irritate me the most is that the book refer to the chapters in bible by Roman Numerals i.e. I, II, III, IV, V etc...etc.
At first, I'm in total lost on which chapter it refer to especially when it come to chapter 50 as in Roman Numerals it is "L". First time in my life to see this symbol.
I know.... I know... I brag a lot.....is time for me to start reading the Bible.
Alpha
I know, I need to start to read the bible or else won't be able to finish in December, but I get a lot of distraction from Internet, TV & other books & I sleep a lot.
Now I'm reading "Manners & Customs of the Bible" by James M. Freeman. Haven't finish reading it and it quite okey. What irritate me the most is that the book refer to the chapters in bible by Roman Numerals i.e. I, II, III, IV, V etc...etc.
At first, I'm in total lost on which chapter it refer to especially when it come to chapter 50 as in Roman Numerals it is "L". First time in my life to see this symbol.
I know.... I know... I brag a lot.....is time for me to start reading the Bible.
Alpha
To Blog or Not To Blog
Yeah is quite a while I didn't post anything on this blog.
I'm still thinking whether to continue to blog or not!
So far my contributor (Omega) didn't post anything yet. I think he won't contribute any post. He is so....so busy with his workload. Yeah, I'm the one who are still very free to blog.
I feel that I have a lot of things I want to write, but my zeal is overcome by my L-A-Z-I-N-E-S-S.
But why not I give one more try....to start blogging again.
Alpha
I'm still thinking whether to continue to blog or not!
So far my contributor (Omega) didn't post anything yet. I think he won't contribute any post. He is so....so busy with his workload. Yeah, I'm the one who are still very free to blog.
I feel that I have a lot of things I want to write, but my zeal is overcome by my L-A-Z-I-N-E-S-S.
But why not I give one more try....to start blogging again.
Alpha
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